Not having blogged for the better part of a month I started to give up on the blog thing.  But that would be admitting defeat and I’m afraid that if I gave up blogging I might give up writing.

My problem is I’m not disciplined.  I’m a fly by the seat of my pants kind of girl.  I like being that girl.  But that girl keeps me from following my dreams and goals.  So what do I do?  It’s time for me to do some soul searching on what is most important to me.  Then change either my lifestyle or change my dreams.

Writing – a book or even a blog – takes discipline.  I have to do what William G Tapply says.  Write every day.  Not just when I’ve got nothing better to do.  Or when I’m inspired.  Or when I’m in the mood.  No I have to write.  And I do write I just don’t write on publishable stuff. 

I also know that though many authors tell you to read while you write.  I can’t.  I’m not disciplined enough.  I will write or I will read but I won’t do both.  I should’ve known that about myself.  After all when I was in college I couldn’t read during the semester or my school work suffered.  That rule still applies.

So I search for discipline without losing my carefree lifestyle.  So far it isn’t working.  Time to reevaluate.